I got my only ever Bluemoon ban on the FA Cup final day in 2013 when it was announced Mancini was leaving and Pellegrini was coming in. I was absolutely furious, rather emotional and I went too far and said some things I shouldn't have.
The reason I was so wound up was because I'd waited my whole life for City to be a good football team. We'd had good players in the past but we'd always been the nice guys, the plucky losers.
That team we had from 2010-2013 was full of class footballers. But it also had a relentless drive to win. It was full of big personalities, physically imposing players, winners. The team reflected the manager's relentless drive for perfection. As Graeme Souness said "If you want a football match, they'll out-football you, if you want a fight, they'll out-fight you."
When it was announced we were sacking Mancini I thought it was a colossal mistake. We'd come off the back of 2 brilliant seasons, and one pretty average one. The squad needed refreshing, but finishing second was no disgrace. Ridiculous clubs like Madrid and Chelsea sack managers for finishing second. And then we were added to the list.
The decline in the last two years has been stark. The majority view is now that he's a dreadful manager. The longer he has gone on, the more his inadequacies have been highlighted.
We still have some class footballers, but the drive, the determination to win has gone. On our day we can out-football an average side, but we'll get beaten by a decent one. And we couldn't out-fight a bowl of jelly. The personality of the team reflects the personality of the manager. Dour, insipid, disinterested, nice. The plucky loser once again.
30 odd years of bad habits and losing mentality was completely reversed between 2009 and 2012. It's taken Pellegrini 3 years to completely un do that work.
Perhaps even I didn't think the decline would be as stark as it has been. But I knew we had a winner in charge with Mancini. Someone who would accept nothing but the highest standards. Someone that always strived for perfection, and inspired those working for him to do the same. He might not say hello to the tea lady, but he'd never accept a defeat lying down. We were lucky to have him in charge.
We sacked our Ferguson and appointed our Moyes, and we stuck with him for 3 years. I've apologised for my outburst that day in 2013 and I truly mean it. But in my defence, the reason I was so wound up and carried away that day was because I want was is best for City. We had a winner in charge, who instilled a winning mentality.
I thought the club made a monumental error that day in 2013, and the last two years have cemented that belief more than I could possibly have imagined.
Plenty of people think Mancini had to go, for various reasons. I accept that. But if any positive legacy comes from these last 3 years I hope it's that the club never again make the mistake of hiring a nice guy who takes defeat lying down.
I love it that the club want to play beautiful football, but this is England. Beautiful football is not just passing to feet. It's giving your all, refusing to accept defeat, being brave, defending heroically, winning the midfield battle, knowing you can beat anyone on any given day if you work harder and want to win more.
We must only appoint winners from now on, and we must instil a winning mentality right throughout the club.
The Pellegrini years are almost over now and I hope the club learn from their mistake and never make it again.